The Journal of a physco.

MOREMOREMORE!!!!! WISHLIST #3 lol

2006-05-11T00:59:14Z

http://www.kinkyangel.co.uk/store/index.php?main_page=product_info&cPath=49&products_id=652

http://www.kinkyangel.co.uk/store/index.php?main_page=product_info&cPath=49&products_id=641

http://www.kinkyangel.co.uk/store/index.php?main_page=product_info&cPath=190&products_id=1934

http://www.kinkyangel.co.uk/store/index.php?main_page=product_info&cPath=190&products_id=1935

http://www.kinkyangel.co.uk/store/index.php?main_page=product_info&cPath=190&products_id=1938

http://www.kinkyangel.co.uk/store/index.php?main_page=product_info&cPath=190&products_id=2028

Spellbinding Lunacy Gloves, Below Elbow Fishnet Armwarmers
http://www.goodgoth.com/armwarmers.htm

Creeper 128
http://www.goodgoth.com/ladiescreepers.htm

Clash 430, Ranger 301, Nancy Boots
http://www.goodgoth.com/ladiesboots.htm

Okay here's somemore ^-+-+-+-^

2006-05-10T15:25:37Z

Things I want online.

2006-05-09T23:55:58Z

Amira handflower $19.95
http://www.sblades.com/ID-P30.php

Spike choker $22.50
http://www.sblades.com/ID-Q90.php

Raven Gothic necklace $25.00
http://www.sblades.com/ID-K20.php

Ankh Comet earring set $22.50
http://www.sblades.com/ID-J25.php

Spider necklace, earrings $38.00
http://www.sblades.com/ID-J50.php

Amira Handstar $27.50
http://www.sblades.com/ID-P35.php

LiveWRONG Black Skull Bracelet $2.95
http://www.findcoolclothes.com/02016.html

UV Soft Spiked Bracelets $9.95
http://www.findcoolclothes.com/01836.html

2 Row Spiked Leather Wristband $12.95
http://www.findcoolclothes.com/01571.html

Striped Fingerless Gloves (White, Purple and/or Red (that's in order :P)) $8.95
http://www.findcoolclothes.com/01942.html

Red Rhinestone Bat Choker/Bracelet $39.50
http://www.findcoolclothes.com/01327.html

Gothic Lolita Arm Warmers $16.95
http://www.findcoolclothes.com/01393.html

(random site don't pay attention to it)
http://www.wandworkshop.freeserve.co.uk/

MORE LATER!!!

Poem I wrote yesterday.... Called.......

2006-04-13T23:28:28Z

Untitled (for now)

I want to feel your arms around me,
To save me.
I want to feel your kiss,
In my heaven's bliss.
I want to save you from the pain,
Kissing you in the rain.
When you frown,
It gets me down.
I love to see your smile,
that makes me go for miles.
I'm too shy,
but I want to fly.
I love you so much,
I want to feel your touch.
I lied,
I want to be by your side.
It's not ment to be,
you and me.

akashamidnight @ 2006-03-13T14:33:00

2006-03-13T22:57:03Z

Hey Mom,
I know you read my LJ just letting you know that I know..... so before you find out I'll tell you I slept with 5 guys and 3 girls last week and I killed a guy for stealing my drugs (Just incase the cops come over today.) Well I just thought I should let you know ahead of time.

~hahahaha~

twitch twitch

2006-03-08T18:55:57Z

guess what?! I have head lice lucky me!!!! ugh!!! I haven't had head lice FOREVER! I had a "gut feeling" I was going to have head lice soon and look at this I had it today and I found outy this morning when I got to school. FUCK I WOULD RATHER BE SICK!!! I HATE HEAD LICE!!!! bugs *shudders*....living in my hair... *Shudders* Yea I would SOOO rather be sick.

ugh

2006-03-07T00:32:43Z

I'm not in a good mood right now. I'm sitting at the library on the computer as you can tell and I'm not feeling too happy. ugh, Kelsey hasn't showed up the last couple times withoput telling me; and I'm tiffed with her about that. I'm not really talking to anyone and I have to wait for an hour to get on the bus and about 25 more minutes to get home. ugh. Aaron logged off and I have no on e really to talk to my 'shrink' isn't on so I'm resorting to writing in here. ugh I'm not in the chatting mood.

My Rant (For the Women)

2006-03-06T20:59:38Z

Okay, Welcome to one of my MANY rants! Let’s get started! Okay this is to all the ladies out there! When you ask your boyfriend “Does this make my butt look fat??” and they reply with a yes don’t go off on them! Think of it like this! He’s being honest do you want a lying, backstabbing bastard?! I didn’t think so. Okay and if they say no but everyone think it does, he either cares about your feelings or he wants to save himself the trouble of getting his ass kicked; and if hasn’t broke up with you for having ‘a big butt’ (which MOST guys like) then shut your mouth, because he either 1.) Wants to get in your pants, or 2.) He really likes you for who YOU are! Don’t brake up with a guy because of what he thinks about your butt; and if you fought before about your butt I bet that was a pretty stupid fight. There are REAL men out there that care and when you fight with then about stupid things they can only take so much before they brake and LEAVE YOU! But if they REALLY care for you they will stay around even if you fight ALL the ‘effing time! Oh and I bet it isn’t the pants that make your butt look big it’s probably your ass.

This part is going to come from ME about something that’s be bugging me and how I feel about what this person said. Okay I hate when friends (I’m talking about the girls, well some of them.) and say shit about one of MY guy friends; which gets me pissed off; and then says something about me liking him and that we’d be a ‘good couple’ together. I don’t go out with friends and grasping at straws to see who I like and it being one of my friends pisses me off to NO END! There IS a REASON I DON’T go out with friends, because the friendship would NEVER e the same again and sometimes braking up means that the friendship that was there is gone. There are more reasons but I don’t want to share that. Oh and back to the dating thing real fast on the previous paragraph; Just because a girl is flirting with YOUR boyfriend doesn’t mean HE is, because guys can be stupid in SOO many ways. So don’t be pissy with him be pissy with her because he is YOUR boyfriend NOT hers. Well that’s the end of this rant and guys don’t think this is it, yours is coming up next!

YAY!!!!!!

2006-02-17T19:08:40Z

I've got a BF!!!! and he's REALLY nice!!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!

hahahahahaha SURVEY!

2006-02-01T07:00:55Z

[Marital Status]	Single
[Shoe size]	9-10
[Parents still together]	Nope
[Siblings]	2 Step Sisters, 1 half brother and 1 half sister.
[Pets]	2 cats
*FAVORITES*
[Color]	Black, Blood Red, Silver, blue, (Sometimes) purple (along with magenta) and white
[Number]	3, 7, 13, 21, 666
[Animal]	Wolves, cats, and dragons (I know not an animal)
[Drinks]	water and other things.
[Soda]	Sprites, Seira Mist and 7up
[Book]	I have A LOT! and I LOVE MANGA!
[Flower]	Roses, Bleeding Hearts and somemore.
*DO YOU*
[Color your hair?]	yes
[Twirl your hair?]	yes
[Have tattoos?]	nope
[Have Piercings?]	yes
[Cheat on tests/homework?]	hahahahaha
[Drink/Smoke?]	>.>..............<.<....... I don't know what you are talking about!!! hahahaha no I don't.
[Like roller coasters?]	YES!
[Wish you could live somewhere else?]	Sometimes....
[Want more piercings?]	yes
[Like cleaning?]	I have moments.
[Write in cursive or print?]	Print most the time....
[Own a web cam?]	Not mine though along with the computer...
[Know how to drive?]	Nope
[Own a cell phone?]	NO! DAMN IT!
[Ever get off the damn computer?]	of course
*HAVE U EVER*
[Been in a fist fight?]	Not really
[Considered a life of crime?]	yea
[Considered being a hooker?]	no!
[Lied to someone?]	Who hasn't?
[Been in love?]	*shrugs*
[Made out with JUST a friend?]	nope
[Been in lust?]	*Shrugs*
[Used someone]	.........
[Been used?]	YES!
[Been cheated on?]	nope
[Kicked someone in the nuts?]	hahahaha.... no... not yet.
[Stolen anything?]	yea
[Held a gun]	Shrugs what type?
*CURRENTS*
[Current clothing]	Black and white shirt with Bad Kitty (Cat on it) on it... Blue jeans, spiked choker, studded wrist band, and a chain hanging off my left hip.
[Current mood]	Mixed...... Pissy, cold, sad, hyper, tired.
[Current taste]	Depends on what...
[What you currently smell like]	Me...
[Current hair]	Faded black my natural color roots and Ultra Violet bangs.
[Current thing I ought to be doing]	Stuff
[Current cd in stereo]	Evanescence
[Last book you read]	Death Note 2 (I know Manga)
[Last movie you saw]	*shrugs*
[Last thing you ate]	Food....
[Last person you talked to on the phone]	Emily
[Do drugs?]	YES! PILLS! HAHAHAHAHAHA!
[Believe there is life on other planets?]	Yes!
Remember your first love?]	...............
[Still love him/her?]	.................
[Read the newspaper?]	Not much.
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?]	YES!
[Believe in miracles?]	sorta
[Do well in school?]	hahaha.... sometimes :P
[Wear hats]	Sometimes
[Hate yourself?]	hahahaha..... YES! hahahahahaha
[Have an obsession?]	OF COURSE
[Collect anything?]	Yup!
[Have a best friend?]	YEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!! MY BITCH!
[Close friends?]	OF COURSE
[Like your handwriting?]	ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!! HELL NO!
[Care about looks]	*shrugs*
*LOVE LIFE*
[First crush]	Not saying ANYTHING about that!
[First kiss]	wahhhh!!!
[Do you believe in love at first sight?]	Yes
[Do you believe in "the one?"]	shrugs I guess
[Are you a tease?]	hahaha you tell me ;P
[Too shy to make the first move?]	yea.......
*ARE U A*
[Daydreamer]	YES!
[Bitch/Asshole]	At times...
[sarcastic]	It's my second language!
[Angel]	NOPE!
[Devil]	YES!
[Shy]	sorta
[Talkative]	sorta
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

YAY!

2006-01-26T16:21:28Z

I did the rest of my hair yesterday!!!! YAY!!! so now my bangs are purple... but the camra is making them turn blue.... hahahahahahahaha.... anywho I'll get the pics up... along with the pics I took at school... I brought my camra to school to take pictures of my friends... they didn't make that easy! I had to stalk most of them all day to get a good pic! anywho I'll put pics up later.... I have to go before I miss the bus.

akashamidnight @ 2006-01-23T15:15:00

2006-01-23T23:14:23Z

Late at night, deep in the woods;
A girl weeps tears of great sadness,
For in her arms is a boy; cuts and bruises all over his body.
His body cold to the touch,
His chest not moving at all, his eyes closed as if he were sleeping.
The girl cries for this boy,
For this boy was the only one that noticed her and loved her.
Minutes later the wind picks up, nipping at her tear stained face.
She raises her head, glaring with dread.
For she softened her heart and let someone in;
Now look where she is… Heartbroken, holing the only one she ever loved in her arms,
While he lays there so hollow and cold.
She was happy then, when she felt like she belonged.
Now times have changed.
She hardens her soul,
For kind to cold,
Because she was left behind,
To be put in a world that doesn’t care about her or anyone but themselves;
But still she won’t forget the times she had with him and will go on for her… love.
She will find the one that did this and kill ‘em.
Wiping the few tear away from her face,
Kissing her loved one, one last time as her last tear she would ever cry again,
Slowly slid down her face, hit the bloodied ground with a splash.
(End scene with her closing her eyes, then darkness.)

~Akasha

(I wrote this at home, for a assignment... I couldn't get this out of my head so I decided to write it for the assignment I had. I think it came out weel ^-^)

Fading Crimson (A poem I wrote in class a while ago)

2006-01-23T23:09:48Z

Drip…Drip...
Her problem’s fading away…
Drip… Drip…
All her pain fades away…
Drip-drip… Drip-drip…
Time has run out, holding in her problems has backfired…
Drip-drip…Drip-drip…
If only someone asked what was wrong and cared about it…
Drip… Drip-drip… Drip…
Well… Let’s just say she wouldn’t be here… Fading away, with her bloody knife.
Drip-drip… Drip…
She’s not afraid anymore…
Drip…Drip-drip… Drip… Drip…
… She told me to tell you…..
… Drip… Drip-drip… Drip…
… “Good-bye”…
… Drip.

Quiz/Survey

2006-01-16T00:51:47Z

*The Best Myspace Survey*
* . . About You . . *
Eye Color::	right now..... yellow, green and blue
Hair Color::	ummm.... right now... it's faded black and bleached bangs.
Height::	5'8"ish
Favorite Color::	Black, Blood red, Silver and Blue
Screen Name::	on what?
Favorite Band::	AH!!!! TOO MANY TO CHOOSE FROM!!!
Favorite Movie::	Don't really have a favorite movie... but favorite movie tyoe would be HORROR!
Favorite Show::	........ I have more then one and too many to list.... Supernatrual, 24, CSI, SVU, cold case files, etc.
Your Car::	Don't have one.
Your Hometown::	......
Your Present Town::	........
Your Crushes First Name::	Not answering that.
Your Grade::	Freshmen
Your Style::	ummm.... depends
* . . Have You Ever . . *
Sat on your rooftop?:	yes
Kissed someone in the rain?:	no.
Danced in a public place?:	yes
Smiled for no reason?:	yes
Laughed so hard you cried?:	yes
Peed your pants after age 8?:	..... can't remember...
Written a song?:	no
Sang to someone for no reason?:	no
Performed on a stage?:	yes
Talked to someone you don't know?:	yes
Gone out of your way to befriend someone?:	yes
Made out in a theatre?:	no
Gone roller skating since 8th grade?:	not really
Been in love?:	.....
* . . Who was the last person to . . *
Say HI to you?:	Nikki
Tell you, I love you?:	.........
Kiss you?:	HAHAHAHAHA
Hug you?:	..........
Tell you BYE?:	Aaron
Write you a note?:	Skye
Take your photo?:	Haley
Call your cell phone?:	What cell phone....? When I get one of those?
Buy you something?:	Me
Go with you to the movies?:	Kelsey
Sing to you?:	I don't remember
Write a poem about you?:	a friend
Text message you?:	O.o
Touch you?:	in what way??? LOL
* . . What's the last . . *
Time you laughed?:	When I was in my room loseing it..... (Thinks: never had it.)
Time you cried?:	........ good question because I don't have the answer!
Movie you watched?:	Underworld.
Joke you told?:	.......... Can't remember...
Song you've sang?:	in my room alone talking to myself.... LOL
Time you've looked at the clock?:	5mins ago
Drink you've had?:	......
Number you've dialed?:	0
Book you've read?:	Manga.... and it was death note 1
Food you've eaten?:	Smokies
Flavor of gum chewed?:	Mint
Shoes you've worn?:	Converse
Store you've been in?:	Red, white and Blue
Thing you've said?:	..... HAHAHAHA
* . . Can You . . *
Write with both hands?:	Not really
Whistle?:	yes
Blow a bubble?:	yes
Roll your tounge in a circle?:	yes
Cross your eyes?:	yes
Touch your tounge to your nose?:	Smartass way
Dance?:	ehhhh
Gleek?:	ehhhhh
Stay up a whole night without sleep?:	yea
Speak a different language?:	yea, Gibberish
Impersonate someone?:	yes
Prank call people?:	yes
Make a card pyramid?:	sorta
Cook anything?:	yea
* . . Finish The Line . . *
If i were a ...:	Dragon
I wish ...:	.... not finishing.....
So many people don't know that ...:	well if I type this then they would know
I am ...:	insane
My heart is ...:	ummmmmm..... DOH
Take this survey \| Find more surveys You've been totally Bzoink*d

HI!!!!!

2006-01-14T04:22:34Z

Hey everyone this is my first journal entry if you haven't noticed :P.... anywho YAY!!! It's friday the 13th ^-^!!!

~Akasha